I wish my mind would stop
stop thinking please its a bad time to be wanting it
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I wish my mind would stop
I’m a little confused because I haven’t heard from Cesar in almost a month. At first I had the whole “He’ll reply in a week” thought in my head. I genuinely think that he doesn’t have his phone or something. Sometimes I think he’s just done with me and since I’m leaving, he can leave without any problems. My dad told me “Have you ever thought that he just doesn’t want to see you?” I don’t think Cesar would do that to me, he’s one of the most caring friends I have. Here’s the thing, I leave in a few days and I haven’t seen him. I’m not his girlfriend so I don’t think I have the right to message his brother or friend to see what’s up; however, I did walk to his house. He wasn’t home at the time and now I’ll feel desperate if I do it again. He came to my house also and I wasn’t home either. Is this how it’s supposed to end? I don’t know what to do, but if it comes down to it, I’ll walk to his house again on Monday or Tuesday.
Dad: “You can walk on the other side of the base for a boy who wasn’t even home, but you can’t walk up the street?”
Yes dad because I love this “boy” whether or not I felt like walking, I just wanted to see him.
I do like J. Cole, but Kid Cudi & Hopsin are the two that I really love and mainly listen to.
why are you doing this :(
There was a point last night where I thought about the second day of my Senior year, Aug 2012. I remember first seeing this guy and damn he was cute. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him that whole year. He was the type of guy that makes you think that he’s too good for you and that you’ll never be able to talk to him. I was wrong.. surprisingly we did talk and better yet, became close friends. Last night I went to his house to play video games and I met his little brother. He’s the cutest kid I was so distracted by how much he was making me laugh and how adorable he is. This guy though, he would be a great father. I do love him, I do. I’ve had someone tell me I’m in love, but I don’t think it’s quite that much. “…You are in love, the way you talk about him…” What I do know is that he’s the best guy I’ve ever met and even though I know people aren’t perfect, he really is perfect to me. Any lady would be lucky to have him, but he deserves the best one, the right one. I hope he finds her and I hope she doesn’t take him for granted. He’s a once in a lifetime opportunity, so cherish him and give him everything you’ve got.